Its not because I havent had anything to say....

I always have a mind full of thoughts and opinions, but sometimes I need to be prompted to but them down in my blog....

As you probubly know by now, I attempted some really cool manuvers with my body, and landed myself in the ole ER with a broken collar bone. Honestly its not that bad now, Im just a little careful with it, but once you get used to not being able to sleep on your back, side, stomach, head, feet, sitting up, or laying down its not so bad!

On a VERY happy note, my 401k made $0.48 cents last quarter. I knew I should have taken that money to Wendover... hahahaha...

While I actualy think that Aprox 99.9% of the people that read this crap I write are Women, I am going to have to vent for just a second. SO if you are an Emotional, Manipulative, or Indicisive Woman, please dont read the following paragraph:

Why are most Girls convinenced that the only way to get a guys attention is to plot a complicated "Needs" based relationship? Do they not realize that we can see through all the things that "need" us for? Honestly, maybe I have just had way to many Survivalist type Women in my life to really get this, but in short I am NOT flattered that you need me to make every dicision. You dont need to create a need for me, or tell me how much you need me. And dont ever try to show me that I need you. Ill throw that one right back in your face faster than you've ever imagined. Now if you care to make a resonable attempt at exploring a real relationship, I have a few suggestions. First of all, It is perfectly ok to WANT to do something, I may or may not want to do it as well, but I will know with certainty how you feel about it. "Kinda Wanting" or "Thinking about" gives me the idea that you are sharing every thought that runs through your head, and I file it away as such. Also, its ok to disagree, I actualy enjoy a friendly discussion about differences, Im almost imposible to offend, some people like me, some people dont. But I actualy like MOST people. And lastly, I am a real person, with real feelings, and I am reasonably inteligent... If you want to know something about me, or how I feel about something, just ask. Ill tell you. And most of the time Ill be respectable about it. You wont get anywhere trying to trick me into telling you what you want to know without asking.

OK Im back, or continuing on for those who skipped my potentialy offensive Rant...
Life if Great at Present as far as I am concerned. I am really enjoying my work, and the everyday challenges it brings. I feel as if mentaly this has been just what the Doctor ordered. It has sharpend my mind, and my skills, back to where they belong.

Speaking of Doctors, I have an appointment next week, I am excited! I have lost just a little weight, which was needed, and I feel good in that regard. My energy level however is a joke. And its not bouncing back as quickly as I had hoped.  After a full day of work I am spent. I have just enough left to get home, eat, maybe do a quick load of laundry and go to bed. I hope to get back to running soon. The weather is nice, and my legs are begging for it...

I took Grams for a short road trip recently, it was a Great time! We went and did some Southern Utah Exploring. Just Her and I... It was a great trip! Hope to get a few more adventures in with her before it gets to hot outside.

Speaking of getting hot outside, Im preparing to release my Opinion on Global Warming, and the Kyoto Protocol.

Stay tuned!

Josh

Visions of Sugar plums

For the record, I enjoy a good seasonal Sugar Plumb, but I am sensetive to caraway seeds, so they have to be just the right ones or I wont eat them.

You ask yourself, What the heck is this guy babling about? Well, when I look around at all the best things in life, they are sorta made like Sugar Plumbs; by taking a well liked object, drying it out, chopping it up, Mixing in a few things that *some* would say will make it better, yet not so much of it that those who object can really make a case against it.

I know everyone has been eagerly awaiting my 2 cents on the Healthcare Reform Bill... Well here it is: I do not agree WHATSOEVER with our Goverment sneakily attaching random things to big name political movements. IE: College loan reform is included with the "Healthcare" reform, AND how many knew that there was a Healthcare Privacy movement included in the economic "Stimulus"!? I would dare say it is becoming increasing dificult to trust our politicians, and much less the mass media versions of "Political Analaysis"

We must become educated for our own protection.

Got to spend a weekend out on the Desert recently, which scratched my itch well enough that I wont need to be doing anything to exciting for Easter.

I have some upcoming health check ups, to be completly honest, nothing would suprise me, I have noticed a little bit of weight loss, which was actualy needed, but I didnt do anything to cause it, so Im going to guess that will mean a slight Medication adjustment is due. My hair is growing great, but my skin is still very hard and dry... no bueno.

For now, all is well, and Im am still me!

-Josh

Its like yelling into the corner of a round room....

You know those things you just need to say or think, but you are completely, consciously aware that it does no good to say or think them? My head seems to be full of those at the moment.

I want to know something, but I dont want to ask about it.

I know how to do something that I need to do, But I dont want to do it.

I have the time to do the things I need to do, but I want to use it to do things I dont need.

I know Im hearing, but I dont know what Im listening too.

Im not completely happy, but Im not sad about it.

Its yet another fruitful weekend, I got to rock lil Emma to sleep yesterday! I made some awesome Grub for Dinner! Im looking forward to going to work tomorrow, and I managed to make my very own plans for after work! I feel like such a big boy! This last week I also refilled my prescription on time, kept my Cell phone charged, replied to every important email, and even managed to keep myself fed!

Despite what some people might think I DO know what I want, I just dont want to tell them!

Agh.... Thats all folks!

Something to talk about

I realize that I have grown away from my blog, and I really dont know why... Its such a fun place... I never know who if anyone is reading it, and I can only imagine a handful of people who actually care about what I have to say, yet with each new post I get a very respectable number of hits on the Counter. SO what I would like to do is have each person who actually takes time to read this junk, to send $1 (US) to:  

Wow, I find the dumbest ways to crack myself up sometimes. (On a side note, anyone interested in sending me a Dollar please email me!)  I recently went on a date to a roller rink, It only cost $2! And it was a GREAT time!

Health update: Im swell, and holding. Check ups every 2 months for the next 5years.

Work update: I love the new job, and I know I havent given anyone specifics about it online, and there is a reason for that. Not that Ive been sworn to secrecy, but more so our Company, and Products are designed to be Web based success' and frankly I dont want 200,000+ people pestering me. SO if ya really want to know that bad, just ask me. Ill tell ya. But dont expect much specifics online, until things settle down. (My Horoscope says things will settle down around my birthday, which is in May, ((again anyone needing that address just let me know :)))

Love update: People love me and I love some people. What more could a man want.

Beannies: Are for sale, I have a huge inventory in stock :) They are great for spring! The decision to sale them is based solely on the need for more yarn to perpetuate my habit. I did drop some off at the Cancer center the other day. They always had a nice supply, but I never cared for the ones they had. I hope mine will make someone happy.

Ski update: The snowpack in Utah has sucked. However that hasnt stopped me. Ill be night skiing at Brighton tomorrow. Come find me and say hi!

Research update: I have not been conducting any animal testing lately.

La Familia: I have a new Niece that is about a month old now. I got to pick her name, (mostly I think because they didnt think I was going to live long enough to meet her, I showed them, and NOW they had to use my name!) Her name is Emma Mae, shes adorable! And she might be a lil spoiled. She has the largest individual collection of my Beannies of anyone! hehehehehe And today I think Im going to take he something that makes lots of noise! Yep thats they kind a uncle I am.

Im going to go eat some Grapes, Have a fine day!

-Josh

New Job

So its my second day here on the new job. You ask yourself...Hmmm wonder what Josh does now? Well, I work for a really cool company, that has a really cool product, that  no one can seem to find. Aparently we are having some Production/Distribution issues. Lucky for me, its not anything I am supposed to be fixing, and even better no Product, mean No Problems with the Product, SO that is making it even better! Aparently my job has more to do with this imaginary product than I thought. I have spent a great deal up time setting up my desk to do the "Work" Im going to be doing once we have a product and then someone has a problem with it. There is a computer program that is supposed to help me fix the problems but its broke right now, SO I cant really practice fixing the problem of our Product when our Product doesnt have any Problems, and the Program for the Problem Product doesnt work. Yeah its Friday, gotta love it.

Officer Down

 My memories with Josie are not unique in anyway, She did the same for all of us, but I have to put my memories into words so that those memories will not go unspoken.

I heard Sgt. Kimball's voice, and I knew he must have felt like the loneliest man on earth at that moment.
It sat me straight up in my bed, I had been half listening to the standard flow of Radio traffic until that moment. Now I was wide awake, my heart racing I knew exactly who was down, and I knew that in an instant our quiet little town would be shaken to its very core. And worse, I knew those men were somewhere around here. She had been taken down, that brave woman who had been there for countless members of our community was gone.

When you're from a small town its easy to get to know people, but this time it was the woman who had held my own mothers head above the water as she was seizing in a tub full of water.

A woman who took a Patrol Car down a snow packed ditch bank where no car belonged because she knew I couldn't stop those two young men alone.

It was the deputy that selflessly handed ME her spare flashlight that night on that cold desert. And as 15 or more men stood watching she placed the cuffs on those "big talking" young mens wrists. I remember the words those kids said to her, and the fire that it ignited in every man standing there, but we knew full well she could handle them. They were in good hands. I had lost her flashlight.

It was the woman who's own cry for help I had once responded too. One of her own was in need, and for a short moment, I was able to give back to her, in a small, small way.

I remember standing at the window of her truck one night when a medical call came through, it was CPR in progress, I just stepped back and said well I'll see you later. She began to pull away and then without ever stopping she shouted from her window: "How many compressions am I supposed to give again?"  I yelled back shaking my head, half laughing, 30... Josie, 30... I didn't think she had heard me with her siren wailing, but when I saw her at the hospital later, she came up to me and said: "You did say 30 right?" I said: Yes, and just laughed. She said: "HEY! Oak City is a long drive to remember that, Im glad I got it right" Ive never seen Josie not have it right.

"She was easy to love, and she loved everyone of us. She deserves our love, and gave us love undeserved."  -Josh Poulsen

I  made it for me

to remember you.

A hero was she

as shown by the blue.

I think you'll agree

it was early adieu.

God Bless You, Josie